I have Dysentery

I never update this thing.

I hope no one ever reads it.

Except like... the people I want to read it.

Who probably don't know I exist really.

Joey and I brokeup... he dumped me.

Jack Bauer will replace him.

Along with alcohol, who I come to love more and more everyday. Although Evan Williams and I permanently brokeup. Like I'm never speaking to that jerk again.

Anyway, I thought I would document my current obsession with a boy who I can never have. I mean, I could have him easily, but the consequences of which would be far worse than my current yearning. Another time and another place.

I'm just hoping I can keep my head about things. When I explode, well who knows what will happen. Hence why I can't explode. The countdown of my leaving this horrible place is not going fast enough... a year and half at the least... I dunno if I can make it.

Anyway, my band the Dysenteries played their first show last night, it went better than I had expected. I feel really good about it, despite the fact that my friends didn't show til after we were done playing.

It kinda shows what kind of people I hangout with. Rather, people I can't count on to support me when I need it most.

Sam Jacksonville

So I've kissed three boys since I've been back.

Only one of which is a *new* thing.

The one I'm *in* love with.

Sam Jacksonville.

The reason I'd actually rather not be kissing the other two.

But, there are some things I just can't do. And number one is love only one boy.

Oh my poor attention span.

But Sam Jacksonville... he's worthy.

sweet sweet heart.

My head burns and itches.

Do i have STDs?

No, I don't, but I have lots of hair dye on my head.

I returned from Denver 2 days ago.

It was a lot of fun. I met lots of boys, but didn't kiss one of them. Aren't I amazing?

That's that whole new being prude thing I'm trying out.

I hung out with my cousin Brad a lot, he's cool, a little too *good* But I had some okay times.

Like when we hung out with his friends at the skate park and went to the mall and sat in a boat.

And went to see the Aqua Bats. Yay.

Anyway, i don't want this blogger to die so I vow to update it more.

I'm just getting away from the attachment to livejournal and other journals.

Ah well.

...I'm off to not thing about lame Italian boys.

Blug

Denver.

I can't do it anymore. Douche douche douch douche douche douche douche douche douche douche douche douche douche douche douche douche douche douche.

grant houlihan

It's too cold today.

I love spring WARM.

Prom is soon. I'm excited.

Amanda F!!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow I am going to wear this crazy skirt I stole from Amanda Field.

It's so crazy that i found it important enough to update about.